Day 100 - Endings

What a journey! 100 days of wandering and wonderings. 100 days of questions and and some answers. 100 days of me. Some silly, some serious, all heartfelt. I hope you have found these full of wisdom and soul. I hope that you feel like you know a little bit more about me and about you. I hope you reread them at some point. I will. Thank you Rhea for the inspiration.

Here is the journey:

Day 1 - Sacred Sacrifice	Day 51 - It's All Still In Me
Day 2 - JEDI Work & The Warrior Archetype	Day 52 - Forgive Now!
Day 3 - My Black Feminine Gift to Spiral Dynamics	Day 53 - Bee Medicine
Day 4 - Soul Contracts	Day 54 - Markeith
Day 5 - Joy is the Revolution	Day 55 - From Water to Fire
Day 6 - Trust, Know, & Question	​Day 56 - What If
​Day 7 - I Don't Like People	​Day 57 - Rest, Celebration, & Recreation
​Day 8 - Treasure Hunt	Day 58 - Birthing, Initiation and Pain
Day 9 - Well Intended White People	​Day 59 - Tenneson Interviews Quanita
Day 10 - The Great Surrender	Day 60 - Grieve the Milestones
Day 11 - Unconditional Love	Day 61 - The Elements of Lament
Day 12 - Gratitude, Compassion, & Deep Love	Day 62 - A Journey to Self
Day 13 - The Myth of Independence	Day 63 - Evolution of Men
Day 14 - Letting Go	​Day 64 - Sacred Space, Spirit & Beauty
Day 15 - Bringing My Whole Self	Day 65 - Baba Yaga
Day 16 - What Stories Are You Making Up?	Day 66 - Spiritual Nuggets
Day 17 - Questions	Day 67 - Freedom & The Imaginal Heart
​Day 18 - The Tree of Life	Day 68 - Where Are All the Warriors At?
Day 19 - Rest Well Robert Bly	​Day 69 - Honey & Lemons
Day 20 - Call Out Culture	Day 70 - Unconditional Love
​Day 21 - Deep Wounds = Big Gifts	​Day 71 - Thank You Dr. King
Day 22 - Mahalia Jackson	Day 72 - I say YES
Day 23 - Giving Tuesday	Day 73 -Intersectionality as an Archetype
Day 24 - The Medicine	Day 74 - Healing, Hard & Easy
Day 25 - Bondage vs Freedom	Day 75 - Divine Masculine & Feminine
Day 26 - Bearing False Witness	Day 76 - Know, Question, Trust
Day 27 - Living In Gratitude	Day 77 - Something to Contribute
Day 28 - Crafty	Day 78 - Choose or Discover
Day 29 - Your Yes	Day 79 -We'vers
Day 30 - Without Rush	Day 80 - Spiritual Breadcrumbs
Day 31 - It's Brave Because There is a Cost	Day 81 - Wake Up Black Men
Day 32 Tending The Fire	Day 82 - Going in Again
Day 33 - Story Council	Day 83 - Soul Family
Day 34- The Water	Day 84 - Stop, Rest, Breathe
​Day 35 - Fire & Water	Day 85 - Birthed By Many Mothers
Day 36 - Vibrational Healing Energy	Day 86 - Live a Life
Day 37 - F&W: The Hero/Heroines Journey	Day 87 - The Complexity of Secrets
Day 38 - bell hooks	​Day 88 - Love is Exact
Day 39 - Happy Birthday Mom	Day 89 - Flow, Space, Time, Weight
Day 40 - Relationships Are Messy	Day 90 - Will vs Willing
​Day 41 - Whale Medicine	Day 91 - Black History Month?
Day 42 - Compassion Isn't Enough	​Day 92 - 100 Day Blog Challenge
Day 43 - I Love Being a Black Fish	Day 93 - Tuck It In
Day 44 - Crazy Mama Self	Day 94 - Keeping Our Promises
Day 45 - Deep Feeling	​Day 95 - Rest
​Day 46 - Anti-Racist Language Isn’t Helpful	Day 96 - Quanita in Wonderland
Day 47 - I Choose Me	Day 97 - What I Have Learned
Day 48 -The Ghost of Christmas Past	Day 98 - Returning Home
Day 49 - Casting Spells	​Day 99 - I'm a Warrior
Day 50 - From Anger to Gratitude	​Day 100 - Endings

So here we go. I used to hate ending. There was a time when I didn't attend the last day of anything. My heart couldn't take it. Most of you know that I am a water spirit. As a water spirit I carry the water, I carry the grief. During that time I didn't know that I was a water spirit. I just knew that I couldn't take it. The grief, mine and others, was just too much for me.

As humans we don't know how to do endings well. When I got divorced my was-band and I had our court hearing at 10am. I was sitting in my car talking/crying to my sister/friend Barbara at 10:21am. I remember saying to her that we spend so much time, money, and energy on wedding and almost no time or ritual for divorce. I called in my community for three days of ritual for the birthing of my new life after divorce.

Thank goodness we, as humans, have the ability to grow. Now I am better at endings. I even practice leaving places cleanly. I try not to have my endings leaky.

So in the spirit of ending this cleanly know that I have enjoyed the writing and your witnessing. It will continue to live in me for some time. And as with all endings there are new beginnings. So I am happy to share that I have decided to continue to post every Monday.

Be well and see you Monday,

Quanita

(aka Wind Warrior)