What a journey! 100 days of wandering and wonderings. 100 days of questions and and some answers. 100 days of me. Some silly, some serious, all heartfelt. I hope you have found these full of wisdom and soul. I hope that you feel like you know a little bit more about me and about you. I hope you reread them at some point. I will. Thank you Rhea for the inspiration.
Here is the journey:
Day 100 - Endings
So here we go. I used to hate ending. There was a time when I didn't attend the last day of anything. My heart couldn't take it. Most of you know that I am a water spirit. As a water spirit I carry the water, I carry the grief. During that time I didn't know that I was a water spirit. I just knew that I couldn't take it. The grief, mine and others, was just too much for me.
As humans we don't know how to do endings well. When I got divorced my was-band and I had our court hearing at 10am. I was sitting in my car talking/crying to my sister/friend Barbara at 10:21am. I remember saying to her that we spend so much time, money, and energy on wedding and almost no time or ritual for divorce. I called in my community for three days of ritual for the birthing of my new life after divorce.
Thank goodness we, as humans, have the ability to grow. Now I am better at endings. I even practice leaving places cleanly. I try not to have my endings leaky.
So in the spirit of ending this cleanly know that I have enjoyed the writing and your witnessing. It will continue to live in me for some time. And as with all endings there are new beginnings. So I am happy to share that I have decided to continue to post every Monday.
Be well and see you Monday,
(aka Wind Warrior)