Week 1: Elders
Week 2: Surrender
Week 3: Spirit Walk
Week 4: Earth Walk
As always when I put something like this on my calendar it starts to work me. It starts to send me things to prepare me for hold space for the people who are coming. One of the things that popped into my mind yesterday was this poem below that was written by one of our Fire & Water participants after her interview while she was in her our discernment about joining or not. Enjoy!
Initiation By Saoirse Charis-Graves
she spoke about initiation.
i thought i might be too old,
and maybe too battered, to say “yes” to yet another
there have been many.
i thought it meant
“coming into” a new life.
a rite of passage for the young, the uninitiated, those who are just becoming.
i have been a long time becoming what i am meant to be.
perhaps i am tired of becoming, perhaps i want to be done with becoming
perhaps i want to be un-becoming
perhaps i want to be complete
whole as i am
“hmm,” she said, paused a beat,
told me her-story of initiation.
not coming into a new life.
coming into one’s self.
“hmm,” i said, paused a beat.
felt my body humming with recognition,
yes, that. coming into my self.
finally. FINALLY. (finally)
then she spoke
words of caution.
letting go of pseudo safety
pseudo affection trusting.
a difficult journey at any age,
the danger is in thinking of limited time, of desiring completion, and wanting to be done,
settling for “enough” —
stopping short of wholeness.