I want to live a life that requires me to feel it all
to love my children so deeply that in moments when I think about them and the miracle that they are to me and the world my eyes fill up with tears
I want to live a life that requires me to feel it all
That meets people in their deepest darkest places without judgement
and have my heart shatter into a million pieces time and time again
I want to live a life that requires me to feel it all
I want to be steadied by the earth, witness the magic of the trees, feel the soothing mending of the flowing waters, hear the ancient wisdom of the stones, and be consumed by the passion of fire
I want to live a life that requires me to feel it all
I want to quake in my boots at the thought of going into unchartered territory, and then dive in with faith, hope, and love
I want to live a life that requires me to feel it all
I want to catch bubbles in my hands, snowflakes on my tongue, feel morning dew on the bottoms of my feet, collect pussy-willow buds, and blow daffodil seeds into the future
I want to live a life that requires me to feel it all
I want to be kissed gently in the dip of my shoulder blade
Make passionate love until daybreak
And hold my beloveds hand as he transitions into the land of the ancestors
I want to live a life that requires me to feel it all
I want to travel to places where I can’t pronounce the names, eat foods that take me on a journey, and sit in circle with people from every continent
I want to live a life that requires me to feel it all
And when my time has come
when it’s time for me to return to the place I came from
I want to softly surrender all of it to spirit
Quanita